A couple of months ago, when Annuar was invited to apply for the position, I didn’t even know how to begin to pray. I wanted a change in our lives, but relocating to another country wasn’t your average change (at least not for us newbie expats to be). I streamed hymns on SoundCloud and YouTube a lot, and that was a way for my spirit to be primed and encouraged. All I knew to do was to enjoy the Lord in the small things and try not to overthink.
Last night I struggled with more restless tossing and turning. My tired mind recalled a couple of stanzas of a particular hymn.
What a beautiful reminder that the Lord gave me. I don’t know what kind of housing we will be able to find or what to do about furnishings or how we will be able to transport our tribe of 6 to our daily destinations. We have so many belongings to go through to eliminate, to storage or to move. I haven’t been able to make sense of which would be optimal in our case. I have never sold a house before. I have researched a little bit online, but I don’t know much about the actual expat process yet. Breathe in, breathe out! Regardless of what outward life changes may come, the Lord remains our source of strength and supply. I don’t feel like I’m in control of anything at all right now, but “I take Thy promise, Lord, in ALL IT’S LENGTH.”
Meimei woke up crying in the middle of the night again. After settling her down, I wasn’t able to fall back asleep. I snapped into panic mode. PANIC. I have so much clutter. Kinda hoard when it comes to certain items, not gonna lie. Like craft supplies. I have so many craft supplies. I love crafting. I love the idea of crafting. I want to have all materials before me as inspiration strikes. How am I going to get rid of all of our junk in time to get the house ready to sell?!?? Can a reality TV show adopt our case, send a crew to help me out here?!?? We would seriously be perfect candidates.
At the peak of my midnight freak out session, the Lord reminded me of a couple of stanzas from this hymn
How sweet is our Lord???!! My soul was CALMED. My mind was still running through all of these scenarios and tasks, but I had the distinct sense that “it will all be okay”. It wasn’t because there are any less tasks, but that the Lord will carry us through it all, every step of the way. As He has always done. Thank you, Lord Jesus for being my real peace!
I woke up from Meimei crying around 3:00 am and wasn’t able to go back to sleep. My heart skipped a beat and my mind started racing. “Did that really happen? Did my dear husband really just accept a job offer that will uproot and relocate our family to a foreign country that we have never been to?” So, so, soooo many details and thoughts flooded my brain! The logistics of an international relocation are so daunting and there’s an endless list of things to do to make it work–with 4 littles in tow! 🤯😱😳😩😧😵 Overwhelmed!! Lord Jesus, we need You!!!
This verse is Annuar and my experience regarding this big move. But more about that another day…at the moment I’m in a state of shock.